Social Withdrawl Or Spiritual Growth;

A Battle Of Sorts Between The Human Being & The Spiritual Being.


Suppose that when you were born into this world, you were surrounded by absolute positivity. There were no rules, there were no judgements and there definitely were no punishments for the choices you made. You would be free to do, say or think as you wish without expectations. Anything that made you a happy and satisfied human being. Now, I am also aware of what the religious "right vs. wrong" cynic would automatically think. That humans are naturally negative (sinful, even *gasp*) beings and in the process of filling their own desires could possibly or would intentionally cause harm to others. However, I choose to think that negative human qualities such as greed, betrayal and abuse of any kind are learned behaviors. A being of whom is pure in spirit and unobstructed from loving and growing unconditionally, could not fathom negativity towards other beings. They would exist very lightly in a space of tranquility, peace and serenity.

We are all on our own unique journey to this state. Some take lifetimes to wake up, some consciously dream, while others never went to sleep at all. For me, I am in a conscious dream state. I must continue on undoing and redefining my soul's path, as a human being, without sociological corruption. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically wiping the slate clean and writing my own uncensored version. Although it may seem arduous, or even impossible to some, it is imperative in the process of the evolution to the lightest state of being. In my human form, I wonder how I will live my life as I continue on unlearning most of my earlier experiences and lessons. What if I no longer followed my so-called morals or values? And what are those based upon anyway? What if I chose to not do the polite thing, like say "Bless you" when a stranger sneezes or hold the door open for the person behind me? Maybe I won't be there physically when someone expects me to be there. Or perhaps I won't truly listen when a friend asks me to hear them. The examples I could cite in my daily, mostly unconscious, consideration of others is limitless. But suppose I make a conscious effort to ignore other humans' expectations of my predictable reactiveness to their actions. Does this make me a less compassionate person? Am I selfish because I choose to abandon my awareness of another? I must question why this is present in my cognition at all. It seems as though many play this avertible game to distract from having to think for themselves. In their minds ignorance is, in fact, bliss. Or so they tell themselves.

Am I at liberty to exist in a spiritual state of being with others who do not consider themselves the way I consider myself? Am I here to involuntarily aide in others' misguided journeys and fall down with them? Or am I here to fulfil my own aspirations, in turn inspiring others to do so as well? Could an illuminate human possibly live in peace if they chose to ignore everyone else's expectations? It seems that in this phase of humanity, a spiritual person who walks their own path will be judged, labeled and sorely misunderstood by those who do not choose to spark their own flame.

As I consciously dream, occasionally my eyes open to see a sliver of light, toward complete awakeness and in that time I am stepping into my own serene universe. In this state, it never enters into one's mind to obligatorily smile warmly at a passerby. Confirmation of acceptance by others is not essential to the blissful existence of illuminated beings.