Observations Of The Mute

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Subject often professes in great dramatics things of which they deem outrageous, but in fact, are not outrageous at all.

Subject has formed a habit of self-depreciating behavior in which they dismiss their own prior convictions to please another.

Subject boasts many important intellectual apparitions, but rarely is able to sustain them.

Subject calls on those who are similar in antics, mistaking syncopation for complementation.

Social Withdrawl Or Spiritual Growth;

A Battle Of Sorts Between The Human Being & The Spiritual Being.


Suppose that when you were born into this world, you were surrounded by absolute positivity. There were no rules, there were no judgements and there definitely were no punishments for the choices you made. You would be free to do, say or think as you wish without expectations. Anything that made you a happy and satisfied human being. Now, I am also aware of what the religious "right vs. wrong" cynic would automatically think. That humans are naturally negative (sinful, even *gasp*) beings and in the process of filling their own desires could possibly or would intentionally cause harm to others. However, I choose to think that negative human qualities such as greed, betrayal and abuse of any kind are learned behaviors. A being of whom is pure in spirit and unobstructed from loving and growing unconditionally, could not fathom negativity towards other beings. They would exist very lightly in a space of tranquility, peace and serenity.

We are all on our own unique journey to this state. Some take lifetimes to wake up, some consciously dream, while others never went to sleep at all. For me, I am in a conscious dream state. I must continue on undoing and redefining my soul's path, as a human being, without sociological corruption. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically wiping the slate clean and writing my own uncensored version. Although it may seem arduous, or even impossible to some, it is imperative in the process of the evolution to the lightest state of being. In my human form, I wonder how I will live my life as I continue on unlearning most of my earlier experiences and lessons. What if I no longer followed my so-called morals or values? And what are those based upon anyway? What if I chose to not do the polite thing, like say "Bless you" when a stranger sneezes or hold the door open for the person behind me? Maybe I won't be there physically when someone expects me to be there. Or perhaps I won't truly listen when a friend asks me to hear them. The examples I could cite in my daily, mostly unconscious, consideration of others is limitless. But suppose I make a conscious effort to ignore other humans' expectations of my predictable reactiveness to their actions. Does this make me a less compassionate person? Am I selfish because I choose to abandon my awareness of another? I must question why this is present in my cognition at all. It seems as though many play this avertible game to distract from having to think for themselves. In their minds ignorance is, in fact, bliss. Or so they tell themselves.

Am I at liberty to exist in a spiritual state of being with others who do not consider themselves the way I consider myself? Am I here to involuntarily aide in others' misguided journeys and fall down with them? Or am I here to fulfil my own aspirations, in turn inspiring others to do so as well? Could an illuminate human possibly live in peace if they chose to ignore everyone else's expectations? It seems that in this phase of humanity, a spiritual person who walks their own path will be judged, labeled and sorely misunderstood by those who do not choose to spark their own flame.

As I consciously dream, occasionally my eyes open to see a sliver of light, toward complete awakeness and in that time I am stepping into my own serene universe. In this state, it never enters into one's mind to obligatorily smile warmly at a passerby. Confirmation of acceptance by others is not essential to the blissful existence of illuminated beings.

Purpose

Throughout my lifetime, I have pondered, processed and mentally filed much information. Some my own ideas, some involving the undoing of others' misguided teachings. I have, at times, questioned and analyzed to the point of absolute absurdity. I had no choice but to question. And I have found peace with my purpose. I am a reflector of light. Any soul existing on this earth today, in human form, is well aware that their journey is not yet complete. Through relentless trials, we as humans are constantly challenged to be what we were meant to become. To find our own unique purpose. We would not exist in this form had we been previously spiritually perfected. I have only known imperfection. And I embrace it. It is not my place to judge where others may be on their spiritual journey, nor is it my place to intrude upon it. Peace in spirituality exists only when one respects the understanding or "beliefs" of another.

In being a reflector of light, I only exist as my true self, perhaps inspiring another to do the same. While some choose to read books about spiritual enlightenment to validate themselves, others look to religion and self-proclaimed spiritual leaders for answers. And then there are those who choose to employ their energy challenging others' objectives, inadvertently neglecting their own. Through their accusations of what is "right or wrong", they reveal a dire need for further personal spiritual evaluation. I have come to realize that most humans would rather exist in naiveté. To not only trust someone else's prognosis of life, but to also follow a dictator-like social code. Fearing a consequence such as eternally damning one's soul to the mercy of a red-horned evil being. Or worse, believing in something simply because not believing is a much greater risk for them.

The fact is, the only true resolution lies within the self. The realization that we each exist in our very own universe and that we are here to fill a spiritual void. Our own unparagoned intendment.

Conclusion: Reverential fear of the unknown is the ultimate betrayal of the spirit's purpose.

Competition: Nature or nurture?

To compete is in our nature, however to engage in competition with another human being is unequivocally pointless. In terms of life experiences, personal strengths and general environmental differences, what would a contest physically or intellectually stand to prove? A sparring of words in debate is only a difference of opinion and personal education. There is no such thing as right or wrong. The way the universe is viewed by each individual being is so drastically contrastive, how do we prove that we all see the same shade of blue? We don't, we can't.

The most productive use of this lifetime would be to utilize what is in our disposition, our competitiveness, toward ourselves. Toward the self of yesterday, a month ago, a year ago. To look back in reflection and now see the fruitful evidence of growth and understanding. To be the paramount of oneself.

But then, say one becomes involved with another who simply can not fathom this precision to better themselves. Perpetual striking with words and miscommunications only serve to delay this process, while inadvertently negatively weighting the spirit. How then does one find light in the presence of one who is lacking? Understanding. By simply having the understanding that those who have falsely come to a conclusion of their own spiritual being are those who have only just begun.

Conclusion: Reflect, learn, improve, grow, evolve.

"Travel light, live light, spread the light, be the light."

Unknown (from a Yogi Tea bag)

Correction

One whose spiritual journey has lead them, roundabout, back to where their original step began, is one who has misplaced their purpose. Truly, one may spend a lifetime though repetitive movements and steps in a dance they have not yet practiced, but should know by heart. A dance that has been inscribed within the soul many lives before. Like the child who never learns the fire is hot and burns his fingers, most roam lifetimes living fallaciously blind. In this place we are inhabiting, between worlds, we must learn from our mistakes and correct them. We must tune into our inner intuition and also forsee said mistakes. We must fill our purpose, our true immaterial, unemotional, light-filled purpose.

Conclusion: Meditate. Accept peace. Breathe love.